Ever feel as though your prayers are bouncing off the ceiling?
The other day I was talking with a friend of mine about this, and she suggested I read Isaiah 42.
Here is my servant whom I uphold,
my chosen one with whom I am pleased,
upon whom I have put my spirit . . .
She reminded me that this week’s Gospel, the story of the baptism of Jesus, is primarily about Jesus’ identity. Before he could go off and begin his public ministry, he had to be established in that identity as God’s Son.
It’s the same with us. Before we can do anything, we must first be. In particular, we must be secure in our identity as a child of God.
But what do you do when the circumstances of your life have conspired against you, and you feel as far from God as you could possibly be?
What do you do when … you feel angry with God? What then?
First, you tell him how you feel. If you don’t, the distance increases.
Next, you acknowledge the mystery of suffering: God has not caused your pain — rather, he identifies with it.
Then, you wait with expectation.
“When we are angry with God, he comes to us not in great and mighty ways — that would be too scary. Instead, he comes to us in the still, small voice. In small ways.”
For me, it was in the gleeful chortle of a twelve-month-old baby, a little bundle of love that met me at the door each day when I came to pick up my daughter. Oh, how I came to love that little kid, who showed me the great affection God has for us.
Then, finally, until the smoke clears . . . you just keep finding reasons to thank him. Because thanksgiving is the surest way to trust.
Today’s Love in Action: What passage of Scripture do you turn to most often, when you feel as though your prayers are bouncing off the ceiling?