Today I had a difficult chat with the mother of a little boy who had been visiting with us last weekend. Long story short, I alerted her to some “acting out” that I had observed, and reported a conversation I’d had with my son about his friend that sounded to me as though his friend might be being abused by an older child or adult.
I told my story, and the mother (with me still on the phone) turned to her son and asked him what happened. His story did not match mine, so she shrugged and thanked me, clearly taking her son’s version over mine. I was stunned that she would dismiss my story so readily, and not knowing what else to say I hung up and told myself it would be a cold day in a VERY warm place before Christopher had any more playdates with that kid.
Ten minutes later, the boy’s mother called again, in tears. For some reason, her son had decided to come clean and tell her. She was calling to apologize for not believing me right away. Craig picked up the second call, and calmed the woman as best he could.
Later, when he told me what had happened, I felt my shoulders begin to shake, and my chest constrict as the full horror of what had happened the night before hit me. What if you had not gone down to check on the boys at the precise moment that you did? a voice whispered in my head. What if you had stayed at your computer working, as you often do? What if … What if …
The shaking turned into sobs as my thoroughly alarmed husband tried to get me to calm down, pointing out that I HAD gone to check on them, I HAD listened to that little voice that told me to peek into the room. His angels had been watching, and alerted me in the nick of time so that I would actually catch what was going on. And now everything was out in the open and we could take steps to ensure nothing like that would happen again.
It was grace in the nick of time. Not a moment too soon, not a moment too late.
Often I’ve heard couples who are trying to adopt — this is particularly common with international adoptions — who are delayed for weeks or months, or who never receive the desired placement. On one occasion, a friend of mine had actually received a picture of a child and headed to Eastern Europe to pick up her child … only to find out that the child in question had been given to another couple. They did have another child, however … would she like to see her?
And with that, a mother-daughter relationship was born. When I asked her how she felt about taking a “replacement,” she said something very wise: “I’ve been praying from the beginning that God would send me the right child. The first child was taken by another couple, so she couldn’t have been the right child for me. I chose to trust that God knew what He’s doing here. And that when the right child was ready for me, I’d know it.”
These are good words to keep in mind no matter where we are in the foster/adoption process. A few days ago I received an e-mail from a woman who had tried foster-adoption, and had even tried to get licensed as a foster parent in order to facilitate the process. She keeps running into obstacles and delays, and wonders why she is being jerked around when she only wants to help.
It’s a fair question. It’s a good question. Why doesn’t the state work harder to help couples who are willing to open their homes to these children, when there are so many in need of homes?
I don’t know. But this much I do know: God cares even more for each of those children than we ever possibly could. His heart breaks when they cry themselves to sleep at night, scared and alone. Just as it does when that child’s “forever parents” get discouraged and consider giving up just before their prayers are answered.
God always sends grace in the nick of time. Not a moment too soon, not a moment too late. That doesn’t mean that the path He wants us to travel will be free of all potholes or rough patches. Sometimes we have to stumble in the dark for a while … but in the end, the light is there if we have the patience to keep looking for it.
God’s timing is not our timing. But His timing IS perfect.
Oh Heidi!!!You are abundantly blessed, and your children are so very blessed to have you as their mother. Know that. And we, dear Heidi, are blessed to know you and to read your amazing wisdom.Still sending prayers your way, and including some thanksgiving to God for those angels who guard YOUR angels so well!((hugs))
Wow, Heidi! What a story. God is so good and you are such a good mother! And also a good friend to that woman you spoke with and helped. It must have been God’s timing too, for your husband to pick up the phone and also help in his own way. Prayers coming at you. :)Hugs,Donna
You are courageous and faithful woman and mom. My prayers are with you.
My thoughts are with you and your son. It is amazing, that little voice inside us that alerts us when things are ‘not quite right.’ I am so glad you listened to yours.
God’s time, not ours…amazing story and so true. There are days when I wonder if I am doing all I can for my children..and possibly reaching out to others enough due to the response you initially received from this mom. It seems that this is the “across-the-board” mindset these days. Good for the children, it turned out so very different and true.Thanks for the share.
Thank you Heidi for the reminder about God’s timing. The stumbling in the dark is difficult. Trying to discern the difference between keeping the faith and simply barking up the wrong tree is difficult too. Some things in life are so obvious and for me this just isn’t one of them!!!